Happy Birthday Dearest Daniel

The photo was taken on the day that Daniel and I came home from the hospital after he was born. It felt so right when I had Daniel in my arms that I never tried to put him to sleep in his own bed, I just cuddled with him until he (and sometimes me too) fell asleep. I am still sure that he was the happiest baby in the world and that I was the happiest mom. It made me feel so complete in myself, being the mom of my three children. Whenever I thought of my unique but perfect little family, my heart spontaneously overflowed with pure joy.

Dearest Daniel

Happy happy birthday. You would have been a glorious 5 years old today and I imagined  what I would have given to you for your birthday today

A day at the beach
A birthday cake with 500 candles (as you could never get enough of blowing out candles
All the Walt Disney movies that were released the past year
A first outing to the movies, to see Toy Story 3, don’t worry Darling, I won't forget the popcorn
A big bag of extra pieces to add to your wooden train set
An illustrated hardcover version of The House on Pooh Corner
Something Ben10 ( I just guess this being the ”in thing” for 5 year old boys)

Most of all I wish and want to give you the one impossible gift, giving you your life back.

Like every other day, I want to kiss you and give you the biggest sweetest Mamma hug ever. I want to touch your face and stroke you hair. I want you, my Angel.

Take care my Danieltjie, I hold you close in my heart and I give to you my love, like always, Mamma x x x