My Heart's Desire

Our journey from life on earth to death to a renewed life in the next world will always be wrapped in mystery and there are many dogmas mainly based on religion, quantum physics or New Age spirituality about the afterlife. After Daniel had died I felt it was important for me to find more information about these beliefs but nothing was substantial enough to change my view that we cannot factually conceptualise something that is ultimately unknown.

I also have seen many poems and other inspirational pieces about our angel children in heaven – written out of love and from the heart with the intention to bring comfort rather than to give an academic insight.

About a week ago I saw this quote on Andrea's page No Empty Chairs, touching my heart possibly more than anything else that I ever have read about our eternal life. I cannot say that I intellectually agree with or specifically believe in this doctrine as taught by Joseph F Smith but his words will stay with me as a message of beauty, peaceful and heartwarming.
"The infant child that was laid away in death would come up in the resurrection as a child; and pointing to the mother of a lifeless child, he said to her: 'You will have the joy, the pleasure, and satisfaction of nurturing this child, after its resurrection, until it reaches the full stature of its spirit.' There is restitution, there is growth, and there is development, after the resurrection from death."
Andrea who has lost her little boy Wyatt added to it by saying "I love this truth. It speaks volume of happiness, of joy and gratitude to my soul. Thank the Lord he has revealed these principles to us."

I know why I am so attracted to this learning. It is because nurturing Daniel was the most joyous, pleasurable and satisfactory experience that I will ever have and there nothing that I would want more than being given another chance to take care of Daniel.


Andrea said...

I have NO doubt in my mind that you will hold your Daniel again as an almost 4 year old. Resurrection morning will be a day where your tears will be ones of joy instead of pain as you hold your little boy again. You WILL have the joy, pleasure and satisfaction of watching him grow to an adult. You will get to do all those things you long to do with your Daniel in this life time. I have no doubt about that. Poor Wyatt is going to get so many kisses from his mom that I already feel bad for him. It's a day I look forward. Words can't even describe how wonderful it will be!
I believe we have a Heavenly Father that will compensate us for what we have lost in this life. You will always be Daniel's mom forever and he will be your son forever as well. The hard part is just waiting for that time when we get to have our boys in our arms again. That day will be one of the most glorious days EVER!! Sending a hug your way.

Tracy said...

WOW Alli that is special, and what a beautiful picture of Daniel xxx

InfEnMa said...

Life has so many faces, so many dimensions, so many forms...
I can easily take that Daniel is alive. With every single posting of his Mom here, the boy's character becomes richer and more developed to me. As well as Alison's character.
For her, of course is not easy at all.

I believe in what is said in this quote. Nothing can destroy our soul and being. We are not meant to be erased. Daniel is resting now and maybe preparing for something greater. I choose to think that he is so far in front of us so we need some more time to run forward to reach him. Alison will continue her journey on earth. Years may past, and there will be no more unpublished photos of Daniel, but she will surely continue to nurture and grow this digital form of Daniel.

I hope some day I will fully understand what stands behind an infant's death.