Losing my child has changed the core structure of my emotions. Positive feelings like peace, hope and happiness that used to be simple and uncomplicated have become complex and intrinsically combined with an underlying sense of loss, guilt or confusion. And where before I could put reason and perspective to sadness, nothing can be done to divert or dilute the longing I feel. My sorrow is as deep and pure as I think any sorrow possibly can be. I will always want Daniel.